trouble in lala land

so not in good place rite now

the past still bugging you n potentially screwing with ur future
i thought i am done with the old one
i said goodbyeS, i walked away *again n again*
am currently starting to be happy with the new presence
finally after yrs, opening up again to the possibility of i might have a chance at something real
but u just had to sabotage ur own happiness isn't?
great going, self!

on top of dat family fails to understands you *again*
i know u mean well daddy
n i do consider ur points too
but how do i learn from mistakes n triumphs if u didn't let me have any of it?

at least school puts a few smiles on the face
and a whole loads of pressure in form of decision making and yeah, studying for exams

am waiting for it to pass
with fingers crossed dat things will work out, someway or another
keeping it positive :s